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Twenties
04:49
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Long Island, you don't have a hold on me
When I get older, I will live out in the country
I'll drive down open roads for as far as they will take me
And I swear I'll never breathe your air again
New York, I love you but what the fuck?
For all the good, there is ten times even more bad luck
I watched as seasons changed again and again but I never did
I just got more bitter and a little taller
I wish that autumn I spent with you had lasted til the spring
Good morning, future! won't you rise and shine
And let your guard down for a second so I can see forward in time
Yeah, I've always been the kind of kid that skips to the last page
I just wanna know what's gonna happen next
Dear Mom and Dad, are you still proud of me?
Did I turn out even close to the way you'd always hoped I'd be?
I know that, over time, we'll both have our fair share of letdowns
But I'll be damned if I end up as one of yours
I swear this time I'll get it right even if, even if it kills me
I'm scared that I'll make the same mistakes
And I'm scared that I'm gonna waste away
In tired suburbs where all the houses look the same
And now my adolescence is all dried up
Reduced to old, discolored photographs and ticket stubs
I wish I could have it all for just one more day
I wish that autumn I spent with you had lasted til the spring
I swear this time I'll get it right even if, even if it kills me
I wish that autumn I spent with you had lasted til the spring
I wish I never wasted all the time I had with you.
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2. |
Down With You
03:40
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The walls are closing in around us
Yeah, it's a good thing
They're bringing us closer, so
What are you so afraid of?
Are we friends or lovers?
Are we friends or enemies?
You say that we should remain strangers
But i ardently disagree
I would tell you how I feel about you but it seems
I've lost my voice again, oh
I'm estranged, I am a stranger to myself
And you're strange, but that's what I like about you
We're deranged, you and I are both losing our minds
But that's okay, 'cause I wanna go down with you
Wanna go down with you
You make me sweat, you make me panic
You make me wanna die in the best way
I can barely breathe or speak or see
And I think, well I know it's because of you
Is this love or something more?
Something I can't comprehend?
It's clear I'm caught in your trap
And I couldn't be happier
I would tell you how I feel about you but it seems
I've lost my nerve again, oh
I'm estranged, I am a stranger to myself
And you're strange, but that's what I like about you
We're deranged, you and I are both losing our minds
But that's okay, 'cause I wanna go down with
You and I are spiraling
I've got to know if what we have is real
It's too late to turn around
We're going down, now tell me, is this real?
How do you feel?
Because I'm ready to go down with you
I'm estranged, I am a stranger to myself
And you're strange, but that's what I like about you
We're deranged, we have both lost our fucking minds
But that's okay, 'cause I wanna go down with you
Wanna go down with you
Wanna go down with you
Ooh, with you
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3. |
Lost Time
03:06
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Fourteen days, forty weeks
Eighty years for all I care
For all I love, for all I need
For all I want that isn't there
My hollow home, my lonely phone
The other half of my twin bed
Just times and places, missing pieces
The gaps in my memory
Walk all day, drive all night
Fly around the world three times
Days begin to blur and fade
I struggle hard to speak my mind
My head, my bones, my weary foes
All the strings come in and swell and die
I feel I'm forcing this feeling
The hole in my heart
Fourteen days, forty weeks
Eighty years, when will it come?
I've seen and done, oh so much
It doesn't seem like it's enough
Searching for something more
Wishing I were made of stone
Maybe then, I wouldn't feel so pointless
The hand that lays in mine
The voice that follows the sigh
The space here by my side
Where she should be
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4. |
Single Life
04:37
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All my friends have girl- and boyfriends
Guess tonight, I'm left with no plans
Dinner, romance, candlelight
None for me, I'm alone tonight
Big wheel speeding down the sidewalk
I'm the third wheel, stuck with the small talk
Are you listening to me? Why the hell am I here?
Can you even hear me with his tongue in your ear?
(We're in a public place, could you please…?)
I'm just talking to the wall, stop pretending like you care
'Cause i know that you know that she's not wearing any underwear
You can get out of here, I'll be fine
(Plus, you're my ride so literally anytime you wanna go would be great)
Your special-someones keep you warm
I put on a big wool sweater (Yeah, it's itchy but I like it)
Enjoy the elbows in your backs
My king bed is so much better
As you keep bumping your heads together
(Pillows with goose-down feathers)
So put your pics on Instagram
Of you kissing, holding hands
(So damn cute, wanna punch you)
I'll keep my hands to myself
[insert reference to masturbation]
(#SELFIENATION, i hate myself)
I'm not asking for attention
Just a knife to cut through the sexual tension
What a coincidence you both "have to pee" at the same time
(You're not fooling anyone)
I'll just find a way to stall as you try to find a clean stall to
Grind in (meanwhile i'm dyin' to leave you with the check)
I'm OK with PDA and if you're getting laid, well that's great
But three's a crowd and it's bringing me down
Tagalong
Don't belong
Three's a crowd
Brings me down
(Tagalong) I'm doing my best to maintain a smile
(Don't belong) But you're eating her face, I can taste my own bile
(Three's a crowd) Dude, I've told you five times now, that is my leg
(For crying out loud) For crying out loud
Are you listening to me? Why the hell am i still here?
Can you even hear me with his tongue in your ear?
(Don't mind me, I'm going crazy, hope you choke on your chicken calabrese)
Your hand goes underneath her skirt, I wanna hit you with my chair
I'm just talking to the wall, stop pretending like you care
Stop pretending like you care, stop pretending like you care
Stop pretending like you care, stop pretending, you don't care.
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5. |
Congratulations
06:04
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You've woken up alone for as far back as you can remember
Your shirts are all faded and your shoes are worn
The apartment's a mess, the paint's peeling off of the walls
Your life is in shambles and you just watch it fall apart
But of course, you couldn't care less
Nothing's in your fridge at all, just condiments and alcohol
The phone rings but "no one's home"
And you break down silently to yourself
Wishing that there was someone else
Well, congratulations for letting all your aspirations pass you by
You're content with disappointment, yeah, you feel just fine
Congratulations, we had such high hopes for you, but you fooled us all
It's such a long way to fall, long way to fall
But don't worry, you're almost there
You sat by and watched as your friends matured and left you
Some got married and some had kids, while the others just outgrew you
And instead of wondering why or how you let this happen
You sulked and you moaned and complained
When it was you who was to blame
Oh, it was you who was to blame
So, congratulations for letting all your aspirations pass you by
You're content with disappointment, yeah, you feel just fine
Oh, congratulations, we had such high hopes for you, but you fooled us all
It's such a long way to fall, long way to fall
But don't worry, you're almost there
I said, don't worry, you're almost there
Congratulations for letting all your aspirations pass you by
You're content with disappointment, yeah, you feel just fine
Oh, congratulations, we had such high hopes for you, but you fooled us all
It's such a long way to fall, long way to fall
But don't worry, you're almost there
I said, don't worry, you're almost there
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6. |
Walking Disaster
04:13
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Old college friend just got engaged
A picture of the ring posted on her Facebook page
Another one just had a kid
Everyone's in love and I'm ready to call it quits
I spend my days swiping right
Hoping for a match, somebody to spend the night
The lonely thoughts begin to bloom
"I'm gonna die alone," at this point, I hope it's soon
Money, confidence, and game are all things that I haven't got
Everyone seems to be moving forward while I'm in the exact same spot
Even my mother thinks that her grandkids will be adopted
'Cause I used to know how to be romantic
But now my heart is just as useless as my appendix
I'm losing faith in my fate, in my fate
Outside it's such a lovely day
I wouldn't know 'cause I'm still in bed, wasting away
I need a goal, I need a plan
But I don't have the resolve or the attention span
Oh-whoa-oh, the sweet despondency
Of an average life is slowly transforming me into a
Sad sack with bad posture, a miserable monster
And I just can't be bothered to conjure up a panacea
Money, confidence, and game are all things that I haven't got
The world keeps spinning about yet it seems like I'm at a dead stop
I feel disconnected and detached from everybody around
'Cause I used to know how to be a person
But now I'm just a walking disaster and everything's a mess
I'm losing faith in my fate at an alarming rate
Hemorrhaging hope, I'd hang myself if only I could find the rope
White flag, I'm done. Take this life back. I want another one
Yeah, I'm losing faith in my fate, in my fate
(Shredsville. Population: Mike Turnwall)
I'm losing faith in my fate, in my fate
Hemorrhaging hope, I'd hang myself if only I could find the rope
White flag, I'm done. Take this life back. I want another one
Yeah, I'm losing faith in my fate, in my fate
I'm losing faith (losing faith)
I'm losing faith in my fate
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7. |
Wide Awake (Interlude)
00:50
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(instrumental)
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B: Hey, so I'm a little drunk
And I've got something I've been dying to say to you
Sweet madmoiselle, I think you're pretty swell
When I'm with you, I'm over the moon
C: Hey, what do you want?
It's four in the morning, you stupid dickhead
Can't we talk about this later?
I really want to go back to bed
B: I'm amazed at how I can't touch my toes
Yet I'm always putting my foot in my mouth with ease
I'm sorry for keeping you awake, just wanted to say
That you're the one for me
C: Oh! Please tell me more
I'm curious to hear what else you're thinking
I maybe feel the same
Are you sure it's not just 'cause you're drinking?
B: I may have had 9 whiskey-cokes
But I know my mind is in the right place
My lips have gone unkissed so long
I swear they're falling right off my face
C: See? That sounds to me like a drunken buffoon
Did you think I'd swoon at a lame line like that?
No way. But I'm gonna let you plead your case
Make me believe that you're the one for me
B: If I said "I love you" right now, would you call me crazy?
C: (You're not quite sane)
B: Would you say that you love me too?
C: Well, I have never thought myself to be all that clumsy
B: (Well, I don't know about that…)
C: Yet I'm finding that I'm falling more and more for you
C: What's your verdict? Is this real?
B: Well, I don't think there's any other way to feel
C: I'd be thrilled if you were mine
B: So then, let's stop wasting time
Both: You're the one that I adore, I'm absolutely sure
That you're the one for me
You're the one for me
You're the one for me
Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm
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9. |
Miscommunication
04:45
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How can we be this distant
When the blood in our veins
Contains the same DNA?
Walk up the stairs and pass
The portraits on the walls
From times I barely can recall
They're fading like a negative that's left out in the sun
Replaced by every time I was a disappointing son
I'll watch the tapes of holidays from back when I was young
When things were simpler and I never hurt anyone
How did we ever let this get so bad?
Essentially strangers now, it's goddamn sad
How did we ever let this get so...
How long can I keep this bottled
Til it all comes spilling out
With my voice raised to a shout
Oh god
Look me in the eyes
Understand I'm not fine
Miscommunication is a curse that we can't shake
And we'll just separate when smiling gets too hard to fake
Our roots are rotting and our ties have decayed
Why the hell are we pushing each other away?
How did we ever let this get so bad?
Essentially strangers now, it's goddamn sad
How did we ever let this get so bad?
I won't ever call when my life starts to fall apart
I won't ever call when my life starts to fall apart in my hands again
How did we ever let this get so bad?
Essentially strangers now, it's goddamn sad
How did we ever let this get so bad?
How did we ever let this get so bad?
You don't even know me now, it's goddamn sad
How did we ever let this get so bad?
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10. |
Ghost Through the Years
03:37
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My skin and bones will break your sticks and stones
I don't know how to feel anymore
Parasites, don't take away my eyes, though there's
Nothing left for me to use them for
Trapped and tied, I'm wrapped around your finger
You pull tighter and tighter (tighter and tighter until)
Until I snap in two, half for me and half for you
Unraveling against my will
Everything is going by so fast and here I am
A ghost through the years
Yeah, I've become apathetic
To violence, to love, to the world outside
Oh yeah, I'm apathetic and there's no hope
For me
Love is a game that I don't want to play
'Cause I'm sick of losing again and again
I'm giving up the chase! ending it here and now
And embracing loneliness, my only friend
It's roomy here inside this gloomy, empty space
I call my conscience (I know it's obvious that)
I've developed pessimistic habits that I cannot seem to break
(Going insane, gotta get out of my brain, yeah, I'm going insane!)
Everyone is leaving me at once and here I am
A ghost through the years
Yeah, I've become apathetic
To violence, to love, to the world outside
Oh yeah, I'm apathetic and there's no hope
For little ol' me waitin' for the roof to cave in
So I can swim in the sun above even though it's fading
I need to feel some warmth in this cold and forgotten heart of mine
Yeah, I'm not dead yet, at least not entirely
So come on and let that great big sun shine!
Everything is ending all too quick and here I am
A ghost through the years
Yeah, I've become apathetic
To violence, to love, to the world outside, yeah
I'm apathetic to death, to life
Oh, to everything and everyone
And there's no hope (there's no hope for)
Oh, there's no hope for (there's no hope for)
Oh yeah, I'm apathetic and there's no hope for
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11. |
Reverie
04:41
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The sun rises for you as it sets for me
Yet I'm still on your time, so I can't get to sleep
Never believed, never thought somewhere I'd never been
Could feel more like my home than my home ever did
Close my eyes and I'm back there once again
I'll deny that this moment has an end
I'm bittersweetly swept away in a reverie
Holding onto what's left of a memory
Sat on the dew-covered grass, gazing out at the sea
For once, my restless mind is completely at peace
The cold wind's unrelenting but I could not care less
'Cause I know it won't get any better than this
My heart and soul will remain forever under Irish sky on a beautiful cliffside
Close my eyes and I'm back there once again
I'll deny that this moment has to end
I'm bittersweetly swept away in a reverie
Hanging onto nothing but a memory
Don't wake me up, don't shake me
Let me be, leave me be
Don't wake me up, don't snap me
Out of my reverie
Close my eyes and I'm back there once again
I'll deny that this moment has an end
I'm bittersweetly swept away in a reverie
Holding onto what's left of my memory
I don't want to lose this yet, oh please
Stay with me, my reverie
My reverie
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